"Time For Change"

Sooo...I was listening to Asher Roth's "I love collge" (you can buy his album on itunes for 7.99, promise you won't be dissappointed if you like hip-hop music) and I thought a couple things.

If I get cut from the basketball team, don't move out to brooklyn, or simply get tired of my environment, I've been thinking of other places I could go to school. Ideally it would be best to go somewhere upstate but my other options are Massachusetts, PA, NJ, or florida. But to be honest it's more between upstate (st.mary's, oneonta, and another school) or a d3 school in florida. I want to play basketball for four years, period that's my goal. So far the results aren't outstanding but I know I'm getting stronger physically, now as long as I can continue that, I just have to be more basketball smart, resilient, and have a boost in my confidence, which I'm getting believe me. It's just when I underperform that I get discouraged again. Anyway... Trust me, I'm a be alright.

Florida is my 2nd option cause I guess it would be nice to live near by (not with my mom) for a bit. It's crazy I haven't lived with her for 4 years after living with her for the first 15. Do I miss her? Yea, kinda. Our perspective on life is just a little different but she is still my mom and I love her to death. I think how I see life is very different from how most people see it.

I am an overanalyzist, idealist who loves to dream big and usually see the positive in people. Anyway, yea so I think I need that force that will lead me to meet new people, mostly people I can hang with.

I've met people, KINDA like that but not really. I only see DV as like my only friend and person in that group. DC fucks with me, but he don't hit me up or nothing like DV does but if I move into an apartment it'll probably be with him...the thought is interesting.

Suppose to be going to either RFK or the studio or the movies but uhhh we'll see soon.

Jam the fuck out