Songs of the day

A, YO! I just want to say PLEASE read the previous entries since everything has SUBSTANCE (yea, that's right Julian)

Ciara Joints that remind me....

Quick Question: Why does everybody hate kanye, WHY? I know he can't sing but FUCK!
Appreciate the art. You see people saying Jackson Pollock can't fucking paint?
That Duchamp's shit aint art? That shit appreciated O.D. by REAL ARTISTS!

(Duchamp on left: Pollock on right)
And on some deadass shit, the shit on the left could be my fucking mixtape cover.
Dedicated...

I know mad videos and shit. I just really hope you guys take out the time to actually LISTEN to the songs i put up. There's ALWAYS a reason why i put up a song and if you ain't heard it or don't like the genre JUST GIVE IT A TRY.
I went on Audrey's Page and heard Jason Mraz and shit, and i was like YO, that song is fire. Downloaded it at that moment. So c'mon people.

Ohh my stomach still hurts, a lot. Twisted. Trying not to think, too much. Just worried. For real. Crossing my fingers.
(You WILL hear from me later)
OH and STTTTUUUUDDDDDIIIOOOOOO tomorrow. Holla!
Anybody want to come? Maybe you?

Last Note of the Day

I live an interesting life.
It's cool.
I'm glad yall who are in it are apart of it.
A part of history.
Especially, YOU
.
P.S. Audrey i can't comment for some reason but THANK YOU!

Pop/Negative Vs. Positive/Senior Year/Last Day

Okay since i already posted like three entries, i'm just going to put the final one up with all that i need to say and hopefully i'll be done for the day.

I actually just feel like Blogging o.d. MAYBE i'm just like upset and i can't count on music to cheer me up right now. soooo yea.
POP:

It's just a verse, unfinished plus i didn't really like it too much, personally. It's OKAY to me but i kind of just wish my father was here. Someone i could talk to and trust more than anybody in the whole wide world except (keep name secret) lol. Idk. I guess since i have a father, i ideal a little more than fatherless children because i see hope and have expectations.
here we go;

"Hey pop, i'm seding you this musical love letter
hoping that things will get much better, in time
i can't say it in person, so i say it in rhyme
sometimes i wish things were all fine
and that you were just mine
i know that's selfish but i can't help it
because i never had you fully there
it's like my childhood was slighlty impared
and i wouldn't DARE, say, you were a bad father
or that you could of worked harder
i'm just saying, you were suppose to be my protector
all the way up to my first college semester
Suppose to teach me, wrong from right
and good habits before i went to bed at night
tuck me in and we'd talk about girls
how one day i'd find the one and give her the world

but to still be careful of stds
it may get you like it almost got me
where protection, no pregnacies
and you know what? you're like a little me
eventaully, you'll be all grown up

but i got your back essentially
so don't try to act tough..."
NEXT: Negative Vs. Positive

so i just want to know why the human brain remembers WAY more negative thoughts and experiences than positive. Is it because the negative damage us? scar us? change who we are, in order to adapt? What is it, i want to know!
Because truthfully i am a victim. I AM HUMAN. believe it or not. Although i act like an untouchable superhero.. i am and will be one of the sweetest, sensitive, sensual men you readers will ever meet.
But i just don't understand. The only thing else i say on this subject is this...
If the positive outway the negative by like a thousand or close to it, stop dwelling on the bullshit especially if you love/care dearly about someone. You don't want to lose something special. NOT AT ALL. Friends are hard to come by. Enemies are easy to come by.
AND LOVE, true love well you're lucky to find it twice in a lifetime. Don't let it slip. I certaintly won't.
Don't be the "damn, i lost what i had because i didn't realize what was in front of me" folks. Please. I am trying so hard to not be, NOT BE one of those people. DEAD ASS.
NEXT:Senior Year

okay, i must confess. I missed out senior year. i was in a daze. i don't regret anything. i swear i don't. i just wish i was a little more aware and enjoyed it more. that's all i'm saying.
Last thing:Last Day

(pretends to find an eyelash) i wish....
Now i won't say just in case it comes true but i want to relive the day the pictures above were taken.
I swear on everything i love that THAT DAY, was one of the best of my life and i would not trade it in for ANYTHING. NOTHING. Not a date with beyonce or a record deal. (the last part was hard to write but it's true because i would get the record deal anyway =) no trade ins, this aint gamestop. lmao)
I was thinking again, and overthinking again on the train and i really wish this day would come back. WHY? basically i thought this was what i could look foward to in the future. Of course not everyday will be amazing but when you're with extraordinary company it's bound to reoccur every once in a while. Stuff like that day are moments i live for, cherish, and simply love.

I hope with all my heart a day like that comes back because i'm pretty sure that was the last time i was 93 percent happy. Those days don't come often, if ever.
So homie, HB i hope we can get a day like this again. I pray it does.
In the words of someone extremely monumental "It will. I know it will. Just hold on."

FIN

Just to get this out of the way...

Yea, so she cheated on me and is supposedly having a baby. Whatever. Still lover.
Jam=sucker for love. Here's the truth...
She had a nose job (which we knew)

<---Before <---After

Jennifer Aniston admitted in 2007 that she did, in fact, have rhinoplasty to correct a deviated septum. She denies doing it for cosmetic purposes, and we almost believe her, because her nose seemed perfectly fine and not really in need of any renovations.(yahoo.com-source)

BELOW: Really sexy, lol.

Don't ask, Just Get It.

I'm not exactly a "genius" yet or look as good as kanye (or as fly as him, AT LEAST NOT YET)
but this is a hot picture.
(one word) Spandex?

Old Song with the "other" Martinez (soon to be second) with my 2nd favorite rapper (Jay-Z)
"Missing Mi Amor" =Title of song?

Blogging relieves stress, is fun, and keeps the mind stimulating/occupied and the heart quiet?
Question everything... (said one of my 1st grade teachers)
~Jam Out~
EDIT: Talented Chick
Day N Night...I think i need some of that green stuff. Not a pothead though.
Check the electronic/remixed version. She's fire
(i feel like a bitter stealing mad shit from Charles' blog...grrr)

Sick

I fucked up...I know.
I feel so sick. Sick to my head. Stomach. Mouth. Just everything.
Ugh, what a horrible feeling. Might go to bed early but i have to do a presentation.
Not much to say. I feel like a dead guy is decapatating next to me.
Yea. I just need time.

On a quick other note: The New Ipod Shuffle
Cool and Hip or Ugly as Shit?

until later or tomorrow...

Procrastinator?

Ayo, lol.
I keep accumulating viruses. I'm retarded.
Procrastinating on readings & studying. Sometimes i extremely dislike college.
Going to bed soon.
Basketball is over. I need to get rid of my stomach and insecurity of it.
Watching Citizen Kane, trying to study shit from it. It's on VHS. Weird shit.
C told me not to blog but i can't help it. It's a quick entry.
WOO! I need to pray again for my midterm.
(side note: Citizen Kane is wild! "Only one person decides what i do and that's me"
Damn, homie just wanted and needed some love plus he needed to learn HOW to love.
=(. Rosebud)

More Drake. This below is Congradulations. Sampled Coldplay. This nigga is next up. Then me, hopefully. lol. "I'm gunna blow. Pause."

"I'm still myself
suicide bars, I kill myself
charge it to the game, I bill myself
I don't feel yall but i FEEL MYSELF"
"I got a monopoly, catch me on my boardwalk
Like I said we pull your card, find out your a hallmark"
WOOO.

~Jam Out~

CUNYAC CHAMPS VIDEO

Fast Foward the girl's shit. Eventhough we had an early exit from the NCAA Tournament, all i hear is: B-R,-O,-O-K,-L-Y-N COME AGAIN!!!

Watch it & Love it!

The (Almost) Complete Birthday List =)

Small HDTV ($300 or less)
PS3 (with Street Fighter, Little Big Planet, & New 50 Cent Game)
Organizer (for my life)
Iphone
(2)New Fitted Caps
(2)Sneakers
Love (Never comes for free/always with a price)
Carvel Ice Cream Cake (Mmmm Good, My favorite cake)
Microphone (Studio Mic starting at $100)
Protools 4 Dummies
Eminem Poster/Frame
Shopping Mula
The good parts of my 18th birthday
Home Free Weights (15/20pds to start)
Performance/Party

No Date But Tracklist

No Particular Order Yet:
Most Likely II Succeed
1)Pick It up Ft. Mike J. Gottie
2)I Stay Fly
3)Jam's Pain
4)Heart On Paper
5)Reality Check
6)Judgement Day
7)Like This Ft. Wes Studii
8)Itsallgoodevenwhenitaint
9)How You Doing Ft. Auto-Tune
10)Get By
11)Cut That Ass(Skit)
12)Stop, Breathe Remix Ft. Mike J. Gottie
13)My Ode
Subject to change