The Question

hey yall,

I know i haven't written an actual entry in a while but i just had something on my mind. I just dropped a new song and video (below) and i must admit it definitely IS, the best one yet. And i'm promoting it like crazy because i have the confidence that this song will impress somebody. But my question is about what about the people it doesn't impress? They're not the haters, who dislike without reason, they are the people who aren't convinced WITH reasons. I sent it to a couple of people who are in a good position musically and they gave me some advice, which i will definitely note when i write new songs. But i just wonder does every new artist worry about this? Do the rappers who are known on blogs, feel this way? Or have they become numb to dislike and continue to do what they're like.

The next and probably last song, i will release before the mixtape is "Dreamchaser" what i would like to think is the official single. I like the song but not sure how much, therefore it makes me question how everyone else will feel when it drops. I've re-recorded it a couple times and have one more re-do to do because i want it to be perfect. I plan on puttig it on itunes and want some OD OFFICIAL ARTWORK as well as an amazing video which might amp what the song lacks, if anything. Lyrically and flow wise it's pretty good, i must say. Roc's production is mellow but smooth. And everyone who has heard it so far says it's dope so maybe it's just me. of course, i want everyone to like it and catch on but it's definitely not easy. I'm sending my songs to blogs all over the place and only a few have posted it and maybe they are the only ones that have read it. WHO KNOWS.

I just can't give up and be persistant and FOCUSED. I can't let my insecurity, which has a been a big problem in the success of my life, get in the way. So now that i got this off my chest...i'm off to chase my dream

Therapy Before Therapy

HOPEFULLY, I'm not gunna be late to therapy but we'll see. Anyway, never realy updated on everything that's going on with me. Pretty cool and pretty not. Lol.

First thing, I still have my job...I think. Apparently some fiasco (no lupe)occurred at my job and the whole staff was going to get fired. Not cool that I was uniformed, illinformed, and was left in the dark BUT did I really expect anything different...nah. So if all goes well I'll be working at gamestop in a couple days/ weeks and everything will be different, maybe a good different. Where I can actually be a really good employee instead of an usually good employee. The manager seems cool as shit and he loves basketball so it might be nice actually talking to someone who understands passion and drive...plus his last name is Martinez. Yup that's right lol.

Next, school starts thursday. Should be interesting. Gotta see how I feel about my schedule but we'll see. Just gotta finish one last thing from last semester...then it's a clean slate...

My only real resolution is just becoming more responsible, get somebody's I.d., release some/solve some anger issues, focus on NOT being late, play ball non-stop, and FINALLY come out with some music for the masses. I think I'm ready, more ready then I ever been.

So that should clear up what's been going on. PLUS basketball has been going extremely well. I been getting better (I think) and our team is a little bit back to normal. So I'm glad. :)

Last I guess I'll say "Happy Birthday Ty!" Might get some hamburger helper, got some wine yesterday, and get some other stuff so I can relax.

Talk to yall later!