"If you could have beyonce would you take solange?" -Fabolous
I just wanted to put that bar up cause that shit is kinda dope and true. Not to take away anything from solange who is talented in her own way but damn...it's beyonce.
Anyway, today is the last day in march so I decided that I'm actually going to try and blog more...crazy, huh? I know. But today is finally a decent day. Like no rain. Very cloudy but I'm glad that it's nice. Like I previously stated I have a concert today which I'm hoping will be dope and extremely inspiring. I've been in my "zone" as of recently and am more determined than ever to kill everything and everything I do. Fuck what ya heard...ya heard!
Today started off pretty weird...slept bý myself for the first time since I was 18 years old but it was nice, a bit lonely. Ít was cool though. I woke up to a really good conversation early in the morning for 16minutes and like 14 seconds. It really made my day. Everytime I hear the voice...I just feel some sort of soothing. It's quite amazing. I been fantasizing a lot...but we won't get into that.
Anyway, from there I did my new workout and everytime I feel my chest getting shaped into muscle, it inspires me. I don't know if I'll ever be skinny or have a six pack BUT I do know that I can get muscular and stronger for basketball because I'm finding a way to fucking play next year...fuck all that bullshit. Seriously. Everything is mental and right now I'm mentally so on top of my shit.
That's why I wasn't phased when I had to wait about 30minutes at best buy when they couldn't take care of my transaction of two cds...because the computer froze. I'm not gunna sweat it tho.
Here comes my next dilemma though...my ex-best friend who I'm 99percent sure did not wish me a happy birthday (yet his gf did) and I texted him on his birthday is broke. He wants to come to the concert with me and my friend johnny and I have the money to give it to him but should I...I mean I have no job. This is the money I'm living off of right now. Also would he do that for me? That's what I wonder the most. Would he give me 20bucks if he had for an unforgettable night. A part of me says yes, the other part not so much. So I'm probably not gunna do it although the nice person in me wants to.
Dilemmas.
The last thing I wanted to touch upon was "death." This girl I went to highschool with, who I was never really close to or anything her brother died...who I apparently went to middle school with. It's crazy. A car accident, I believe. For the people who know me and have read my blog before, me and death aren't exactly friends. We don't really know eachother. I still feel sad but I'm more scared. It's kind of selfish because I don't wanna know what losing someone like that feels like. Ever. But I will. I hope it isn't ever sudden like that and I wanna wish the best to jackie and her family. That's all I can say, best wishes, prayers, and I hope that they will overcome and live life...
Later.
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